Bond (n) - 1. Something that binds a person or persons to a certain circumstance or line of behavior. 2. Something that binds, fastens, confines, or holds together.
"My word is my bond!" That just might be one of my life quotes because I pride myself on doing what I say. If I speak life into a task or favor I do everything possible to fulfill it. In fact, if I cant make good on something I said I'd do it eats at me and nags me until I rectify the situation. Of course, I realize in life that plans don't always go as they should but if a plan falls through I'd rather it be at the expense of me exhausting every possibility before walking away. Call it a huge heart or just call it dependable, either way you wont call me flaky these days and I can surely be counted on if I say I'm going to do something.
This quality I possess has become ever clear as I continue to work on the play production I've made mention of in several blog entries. The whoas, complaints, drop outs, last minute cancellations, and other distasteful actions by others left me a bit bothered. In a perfect world, we'd all have the career, mate, financial status and other desires of our dreams...but life ain't perfect. You have to weather the storm to get to the sunshine and let me tell you that a lot of folks are scared to work in the rain. I'll admit that the actions of the people around me lately have made attempts to enter into my thinking leaving me overwhelmed. They had me wondering if I should still be a part of the project. "Am I the only one that sees value in this project or are these people just lazy and incapable of being creative along the bumpy road?" The answer to this question has been coming to me through constant prayer and conversation with the "appropriate" people. I stress "appropriate" people because initially I did gossip and vent to anyone that would listen and that didn't get me any place I desired to be.
Just yesterday I received an inspirational email that said "God has given you a seed to plant, water, and harvest, be sure you are sowing it in the right ground." This is two part for me. First, I believe that God has granted me wonderful opportunities in this production and I shouldn't squander it away by conversing with the wrong folks about the wrong things. I'd surely be planting the wrong seeds in the ground. Second, I have to ask myself if the project as a whole is the right ground to sow my seeds of talent, organization, commitment, and hard work into? I had a reassuring conversation last night that firmly answers that question with a Yes. I allowed the voices in my ear to distract me and almost take me off this path because I lost Faith and began to doubt. I forgot to listen to the Spirit in me that knows I can stand the strong winds and rain of this stormy phase. Trusting that God will bring me and the rest of the crew through to better days.
So while my motto may be "My Word is My Bond" it now also reads "His Word is My Bond". Staying prayed up and Christ focused is the glue I need to hold life together and push forward. I knew from the beginning that God sent this opportunity to me for a reason and this is one of the lessons I was meant to learn. I'm so thankful to still be on this project and standing strong while others fade and fall. This project is guaranteed to get a bit bumpier along the way but I trust that God is guiding me through this journey. To Him be all the glory.